I just had a stunning realization. Cancer has taken so many good people from this earth. It was brain cancer that took my brother George, two weeks ago today. However, cancer is most likely why I am still alive. I didn't appreciate living until that nasty invader told me it wanted to kill me. What it didn't know was that it was very curable in that case...and what the darkness around me didn't know was that light and a hunger to really live was blooming.
So...I'm sitting in an awkward position at the moment. I am hateful toward cancer and grateful to it as well. I don't think there's an easy answer to this riddle. Not sure if there's an answer at all. In the looming shadow of George's passing, surrounded by the echoes of all the others that have gone...I will think on these things. I will learn to see the beauty in this dance once again. One...step...one breath...at a time.
Im sorry for your loss. Cancer is a horrible thing but I understand what you mean about it making you appreciate life more. I was only young when I had it so didnt really effect me like that but I can imagiene it effecting someone older like that. A while ago I was severly depressed and nearly ended my life but a few health scares made me realize how I didnt really want to die and didnt attempt after that. I am glad im alive but life is hard xx
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